A Shock found out during LUNCH TIME

I had no idea what happened on 101010
until this afternoon when I for once have my lunch in the pantry
when it is packed with my seniors colleague.
They were chit-chatting, as usual during lunch hour.
So... i start catching up their topic
since i decide to stand and have my quite lunch
which provided FREE by my company. =D

They were talking about very young died in the accident,
18,19, just graduate.
From A-Z....
from news to personal....
Just love listening to their conversation,
i listen every time, but never comment.
Then i asked a stupid and silly question
"When did it happened?"
"101010" they replied.
"you didn't read newspaper ah?!" they commented

Seriously, i've no idea.
Yesterday was so tedious and tiring.
SO i flip open the newspaper of yesterday and today.
I read.....

After reading, i google for photos.
I prefer photo story telling then words story telling...
but i won't mind reading both.

I felt my heart aching when i read the newspaper,
i felt sickening when i saw the picture.
The accident was very fatal.
I saw the 2D Pile-Up structure of the accident from The Star.
You can imagine how fast that bus was....
that can cause such a unbreakable, unstoppable force.

for DETAIL visit
http://www.seventh-angel.net/2010/10/12/10-10-10-delima-express-bus-tragedy-at-km223-north-south-expressway/

I posted a few photos on facebook too.
But a friend comment that it is better not to spread
the whole thing on Facebook,
cause it will somehow trigger the triggered the pain all over again.
I sort of agree, therefore i withdraw those photos.

The accident was really serious that
some of the victim cannot even be recognize....
face also came off....
there is one with out the upper body sort of thing....
Gross, but feel sorry at the same time.

And Star also said the blame game starts again.....
however, i would say,
no one to be blame but the driver.
if he did not speed, everything will be fine.
If he is not speeding, and he somehow lost control for a second,
the incident will not be this serious, fatal, and so bloody vivid too.
so......... I've no pity for the dead bus driver.
And if he is not dead......
he can't be doing anything else but to either regret for life,
kill himself or get hang to death by law.
hmmmm. but maybe the law will just
hang his license and make him serve jail terms.....

Anyway, RIP.
next life will be better.

Karak R&R, scare the shit out of me!!

Just something to share.....
No photos, no video, just words.
And description of what i felt...

Few day ago, 3rd of October,
I went to this Lata Tampin waterfall with some Facebook acquaintances.
In the morning, KARAK R&R is where we meet up with the others.
The hike might be shared in another entry. :)
If i manage to dig sometime out... to blog about it.

SO, Not many people there in the morning,
we went for the hike,
Around 3.30pm, we had some issues which ended up,
we did not clean ourselves around that area.
SO we decide to get ourselves a place to clean up.
KARAK R&R is where our next stop is.
It was packed with MALAYS-ian.
My sister n i went to the toilet to clean up.
and when we exit the toilet....
WOAH! the queue was THAT LONG!!
obviously i got a shock.
every single one of them are MALAYS.

I have no idea why, suddenly i just DON'T feel SAFE....
I faster walked out of the toilet, and
Once i stepped out,
I sees more MALAYS.
which is terrified! I landed myself onto a foreign land. O.o|||

Someday ago,
I used to walk freely and feel peace and calm among the others.
I've no idea whether it has something to do with what i read,
or what i heard, or what i saw....
which make me feel so afraid of being among the "others".

During RAYA, i went raya puasa market to buy food for my family.
I sort of pondering whether to go, or not to go again
after the first visit to the SG Besi apartment area,
I feel scare wey.

The whole market, I walked from the 1st stall to the last stall.
I'm the only "other" there.
It was the same feeling in KARAK R&R.

Anyway, this is just a share of my thoughts and feeling.
And I don't think i'll go there again if i've a choice.
As remark,
if i'm not following the current affair in newspaper/internet,
I don't think i'll be feeling this way.
However, it is not easy for me to just drop my habit of reading the current affair,
Million thanks to my lecturers during my degree education.
(^.^)

ASIAN and SEX? WHY NOT?!

No sex please, we're Asian

(MALAYSIAKINI 2010)

Really??
NO SEX?
My 2 cent, I disagree on the summarize statement by NST too,
that "not teaching kids about sex early enough is the reason
for the problems with teenage pregnancies
and other related problems."
However, NO SEX please, we're ASIAN.....?!

Early sex education don't really play a role in this matter,
lets say family plays a more important role.
WHY?
honestly, i'd never pay much attention in class
while i'm in primary and secondary school time.
SO how on earth i got educated on sex??

I grew up in a very open minded, 90% freedom given family.
I'm allow to do and involve in many things and activities that
older generation might not agree to.
At my young age, I get to watch any movie, drama
shoot by anyone, any country.
I'm allow to listen to any songs,
Surf any Internet page,
Chat with any people that I don't know on ICQ, MSN
Hanging out with friends until late night,
Lepak-ing around Mamak,
or even clubbing and night life,
It is all allowed.
I can read any books,
and articles that I want,
even share and discuss it with the family during after meal chit chat.
I'm even allowed to watch porn!
(don't believe that?! my family and i watch together gether lo.)
I got all the influences from the western culture,
such as, TATOO piercing, Body piercing, hair dying, etc.
(My mother even paid for my TATOO!
A white lady asked my mother "WHY are you paying for her tatoo??!!")
Try guess what my mother said.
.............

I don't see what's wrong with the western culture,
my parents both think that i'm too westernize,
BUT, they always agree to me when I reason on some issues.
I became even more mature in thoughts and mind than many other people.
I truly believe that without these influences,
I wouldn't be me.

Because of the culture, I'm more daring, sporting.
My parents seldom worry for me when I'm outside,
outstation, oversea,
BECAUSE I'M RELIABLE AND MATURE ENOUGH TO THINK FOR MYSELF.

the words that i just highlighted is the root to teenage pregnancies.
I believe so.
SELF DISCIPLINE form your RELIABILITY, GAIN the TRUST.
The way you speak, present, portray your MATURITY.
YOU DO NOT do what others ask you to do,
YOU DO what you think is true and right.

And regardless of whether we are ASIAN or EUROPEAN or MIDDLE EASTERN,
Basic SEX education is necessary.
It is even better if everyone can speak it loud and shout.
There is nothing to be embarrass of.
One day soon, you are gonna have sex,
SAME SEX, DIFFERENT SEX,
that is not an issues too,
as long as you are 100% conscious of what you are doing.

PLAY BY THE LAW,
I will not say, is a MUST,
but it is BETTER.
UNDERAGE SEXUAL CONDUCT,
better not, that will not gain you any reliability/trust from your parents. =P

I do have my tradition too,
I may be open minded, but i'm not that WILD.
I don't take 1 night stand,
at least not at the moment,
I don't do prostitute,
SEX for $$, that is not something that I can accept.
Pleasure for $$, can la. eg, if you are very horny type of person,
that you need a lot of pleasure, GO AHEAD.
But, guys, beware of HIV.
it is not fair for your wife and family if you are a HIV carrier,
due to your irresistible and uncontrollable pleasure seeking.
I still uses chopstick (the right way)
I use have union dinner every year.
I still pray, when my parents asked me to (because i think i'm a free thinker lo)
It is theirs religious, and i RESPECT that.
I still address my parents as PA and MA and not by names,
(sometimes got la, for fun)
I still address my bro as bro instead of by name,
I address every senior with the proper title.
I address older people SIR, MDM, but not OI!

I practice ASIA-ISM too.
But i'm as open minded as other people, non Asia.
and most importantly,
I prefer SAFE SEX IF you ask me.
and i think that is very important,
you don't like ur life control you,
you take control of your life. :)
I plan your pregnancies,
but not having pregnancies while you know you still need to attend school
and sit for SPM, STPM in 4 months time,
where you are gonna carry a BIG and HUGE BELLY to school.

Cheers, just my 2 cents. ASIAN and SEX? WHY NOT?! ^^

Working LIfe.... Stiff shoulder, Tired days....

I'm currently working lo.
I was working, but I left, and join another company after a month rest.
Not really rest,
My kakak, permanent housemaid left for good.
SO i were busy playing her role for 3 weeks...
Doing some house chore,
cooking, cleaning (a bit)
This is the bigger change in my life.
Working life is not the major change.
I just kinda move my butt to another place, another building,
for longer hours, facing PC longer hours than i used to.
Speak on the phone longer than I ever had.
*I don't like talking over phone*
Reading little than I used to.
Planning my speech my script more than i used to.

This new environment is really good.
The people in it is also good.
TO me, I feel little too good.
NOT feeling too comfortable for the 'GOOD'
I don't feel like deserving this treatment.

Anyway, that is my job,
send emails, sale calls, and everything else.
AS long as it is a request from anyone in the office,
I need to do my best to complete the task,
That is how i'm gonna look at my job.
I need to do everything for me to learn
and excel in my field like these people in the office.
They are really good.
Expert in their field.
Good People, GREAT MIND, GREAT THOUGHTS,
GREAT ATTITUDE, GREAT People!

So, here some update on what i do.
Talk Crap with someone....

That is DASON, yup, right.
He is working too.
Just started.
A far company from home,
hope he has fun with this "no commission" company.
read carefully, he gets commission lo. LOL

Check personal emails,
and i notice that i start getting some weird corporate emails from China...
I wonder why... and how....
maybe my spam filter got leakage d.
Time to reset.

Music Player, I'm like plugin when i'm not making calls.
While i'm sending emails, reading about the client's company, and stuff,
Normally i would plugin.

Familiarizing myself with the country calling code.
Eg, France +33, Singapore +65, UK +44,
China +86, HongKong +852, Germany +49

Checking oversea holiday, so that i don't rang the empty haunted block,
which i did on the 2nd week of my job. LOL.
It is very important, cause some client might divert their call to mobile.
Which u really don't want to give them a 'not considerate' image.

Translating languages to english.
Some of the auto reply email, are in languages that i cannot understand a bit.
eg. Italy, France, Germany...
And to translate for some of the client that cannot understand english.

Converting currency...
I'm in a local company, but their market are international,
therefore, their charges are in US dollar.
So need to convert in case customer ask, which haven happen on me. =P

Checking time!! it is important because i'm in a different earth!
I'm from mars and these people are from earth.
SO i need to make sure i don't disturb their sleep. XD
Otherwise, they will said.....
"Missy, savez-vous quelle heure il est maintenant ???!!"
and i really don't want that.
because I cannot understand a bit too.
It is already very difficult to have them talk to me in English.... T.T

There, that is sending out emails and locating them back
when i need to refer while calling customers.
It is all company account.
Personal one, let's keep for my crap talk. =)

Obviously, that is updating my blog,
it is ending of my working hour d....
Very tiring, calling.... tho not making many calls,
but thinking and illustrating the calls and possibilities
basically drain and tens my brain....
But one thing about my work,
I can be calling from morning until night, because the market is global.

Here come the interesting part.
Reading the Malaysia Insider while i'm too tired from illustrating my call
and reading about cold calling tips and techniques.
It is a very interesting and truthful web press.
You can find a lot of freedom of speech and press in this website.
Some might be shocking, some might be fun,
some might even make your blood start boiling like 210 degree Celsius,
which is sort of NO GOOD!
But, i love reading these type of freedom than reading the so-called
TRUTH on our nation press.
eg. STAR, NEWS STRAITS, CHINESE paper.

And this MalaysiaKini,
the press that need to subscribe.
Yeah, i did, of course, i cannot let myself miss all this Truth.
Btw, do you guys knows the government just wanting to BAN
a book called CARTOON O-PHOBIA.
I have no idea what is in it.
i'm very curious,
but it is too expensive for me to just buy or get it free,
if it is no good.... how?!!
I still prefer buying a good book than just
buying a book because our beloved government thinks that
it threaten the harmony or what not. LOL.

And after everyday, almost the same time.....
I'm having very bad shoulder pain.....
Very stiff la.....
and actually i want to stay later one....
but everyone leaving, so i think i should learn how to lock the door,
So that i can have some peace in making my calls ALONE...
Anyway, I'm gonna start calling now.
Will update again when i get the time. :) Ta!

A drawing from me

I pick up my machincal pencil,

I pick up my paper,

I pick up my water colour,

I pick up my brush,

I pick up my drawing pad,

I take up 30 minutes,

I planned my runway,

I planned my style,

I planned my green,

I planned my tagging,

I knew I always wanting Green......

After approximately 30 minutes......

A drawing from me......

Present for Myself

Today, i just decided to give myself 2 birthday present for this year.
both present has something to do with my tummy.
I'll need to get rid those fat in my tummy.
i need to flatten my tummy more.
Before 2010 ends,
i'll successfully flatten my tummy.
and buying myself a belly piercing
and a tattoo piercing somewhere hidden around my tummy.
somewhere sensitive, and should be sexy.
and that is what i'm giving myself. =)
so, tomorrow onwards....................
more running, more exercise, less makan.
less fat especially, and less fiber.

looking forward. LOL.

Been A Long Time

It has been some time without update on my blog.

When people grow older,

they forget the fun of sharing.

I mean for me

While i were studying in secondary school,

i used to blog everyday

But it wasn't on blogspot,

it was on msn space.

I always wanting to go back that space and copy every entry of it.

make it a scrap book for my teenage life.

It is full of memory from my secondary life.

Those days, i'm not even allow to go online 24/7,

now when i have the free and total access to the internet,

I no longer need to be in the internet world 24/7.

I found something else, something more to do,

then having besides my dad's computer the whole day and night.

I get to have fun in doing other stuff,

DIY stuff, house stuff, hobby stuff.

watching movies, reading books, photoshooting, photo editing.

I edit something like this.

Trapping my mom into my dad's HTC.
making her gimme some horrifying expression while she was watching romance movie.

Snapping my 2nd pet, Fate, the king,
cause he always do what he want.
He never bother whether you permit it,
or whether you allow it,
or you even like it.
He love air conditioning, he obviously love that little portable fan that cooling him.

Besides all, I also get to make the fun out of my little sister.
Whenever i saw something funny,
I make her do.
And when i'm too bored,
I can just hit her or even have a fight with her out of nothing
without a valid reason.
however, it could end up bad.

My mom, my sister, and i
sometimes we also went to have some real good fun.
Ciao, the itallian restaurant.
Drinking coffee, and my mom took only their smallest cup of expresso.
I told my mom, i'll never grow.
because i just don't take any of those stuffs that adult love.
many of my adult friends just love coffee.
they love others stuff such as
man, women, beer, clubbing, chitchatting,
I don't have a man that i'm particularily care about
except my bro and my dad which do not count.
I don't have a women that i'm particularily care about too,
except my mom and my little sister.
i don't take coffee and tea.
I further i go will be plain lipton tea, without sugar, without milk.
and iced lemon tea of course.
I don't like coffe at all, and i don't take at all.
i don't drink, not even beer.
I hate the feeling of getting too hot,
and yet can't take off my shirt,
and most importantly, the red face of mine after drinking.
I don't go clubbing,
not that i don't want to go,
i just don't have the chance,
and i doubt that i'll love that as my daily.
I still prefer somewhere brighter and less people, less strangers.
i don't do chitchatting a lot.
I can never find a topic.
i lost all my words, especially to strangers.

and my mother said "don't be silly,

not every adult does that, and i don't"

Three of us even when window shopping and real shopping together.

Some time, i'll just take everything and put on for fun.

see if i will get new style.

and my sis will asked me to pick some for her,

she'll put on and just snap photos.

never buy anything at the end of the day.

That is her, and she is really stingy,

She never spend me on makan,

not even once.

Almost every 2 weeks, my family and i went for movie.

We watch iron man, IP man 2, lovely bones, universal soldier, etc.

and we always visit the loo before and after.

Too lame. lol.

Other than that, I enjoy playing board games at night with my family,

sometimes we do Monopoly, sometimes we do Life,

sometimes Cluedo and sometimes Scrabble.

We always played until we emptied the full bag of title.

and with the King hanging around in the room,
he always ruin everything when he feel like it.
ish, from the floor to the bed,
without fail, he will knock off the whole puzzle
when everyone is cracking the brain for a solution.
and i always feel like he is making face after what he did,
and said "nah nah naaanah! if no one plays with me, no ONE PLAYS!"

and sometimes, i'm not even into the game that much.
Because i've to wait my mother to think of something for my little sister.
so, i do my reading.
I read magazine, i read book.

and sometimes, see, how come my sister's tile are facing me??
lol, sometimes i just have to solve for her.
My mother always said i'm strong on that.
I don't think so.

That is all. Of course, still,
i'm an addict of Sims.
So, i always play with it.
Sims 1, Sims 2, Sims 3.
that is my daily life,
and a random posting for this long ignored blog.