Sunday, June 19, 2011

a s-napping day: read through the eyes

a s-napping day: read through the eyes: "pure cyan blue eyes, deep as open ocean"

my new blog. a photo blog actually.
I hope that will be more easier to maintain.
This is harder, because i need to spend time to recall what happened.
but that, all photos, with single line caption.

Before that, will be posting some old photos.
when all albums are up, new shoot will take place.

Keep shooting photo, this is the only way to keep my skill,
and improve my skill in photographing.

Not picking up camera for too long, afraid my skill might abandon me.

Cheers! :)

Sunday, February 20, 2011

I admit...

I admit I do need 
a stronger person 
to take care of me......
And sometimes, 
I'm just not strong enough 
for myself......
When the day the both of them 
leave me behind,
I hope I'll 
not be too broken......
I'm afraid of that day......
and i hope,
never come that day......
I know it is the only thing on this earth
where impossible do exist......

---I too am vulnerable---
---I too am fragile---

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I carry your heart with me by EE Cummings

I carry your heart with me
I carry it in my heart
I am never without it
anywhere i go you go, my dear
and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling
I fear no fate
for you are my fate, my sweet
I want no world
for beautiful you are my world, my true
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
which grow higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart
I carry it in my heart

I carry your heart with me - Edward Estlin Cummings

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Boycott? Yes, No?

Recently, I received a few short message 
in mandarin, requesting reader 
to boycott products by Pemanis Sdn. Bhd.

Based on the message, the boss of this company, 
commented that BN (Nasional Political Party) do not need 
the VOTES of Chinese community. 

It seems that this have upset our fella Chinese.
Actually I don't have much to comment, 
I'm not following political issues these days. 

No idea what's happening. 
I personally don't think this will have any impact on him. 
And, beyond frustration from those days, 
while I still follow, 
I realise, I really shouldn't let myself piss on this issues anymore. 
It is either I work harder, and try to leave this country, 
or I just bear with it for this lifetime. 
It won't be long, under tense and not really happy condition, 
it will be very short. LOL


Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Winter Solstice

Winter Solstice. 
It is a important festival for Chinese. 
My family always have our reunion brunch on this day. 
This year, they celebrate it early on the 19th because today is actually a working day. 
However, it is irrelevant to me. 
I'm working on last weekend too. 
Therefore I wasn't there. 

We eat 'Tang Yuan' on winter solstice. 
Thanks to my boss and colleagues. 
 I get to eat it too, though I'm not at home. 

Not bad, delicious. :)
Wishing me and everyone a better year ahead. 
Healthy as always, happy as always and safely as always!

singing off... Happy Winter Solstice! 

Saturday, December 18, 2010

A night of Laughter

I attended a funeral yesterday night. Around 10pm. 
Father of a friend of my mother passed away on Friday, 17 December 2010. 
This is one kind of funeral that I don't mind attending. 
It is somewhere at Subang Jaya, Nirvana something. 
When we was there, son of my auntie, told us that they are in the aircond hall. 

I wonder, how could it possibly to have a taoism/Buddhism funeral in an air-conditioned hall.
It was actually a Christian funeral. 
I have no idea when did the family converted to Christian. 
But I will totally agree for my parents to convert themselves to Christian. 
Their funeral is really hassle free. 
and most importantly, noise free. and it is less dull. 

The atmosphere is not sad... not that sad... 
Her eyes were red and watery, but she can still make joke on that 2 months 
of tiring trip in and out hospital with her old man. 

To share the best one:
Doctor: Be prepared, he will be gone in few hours time, maybe 6. 
D called all relatives to gathered around, 
she stayed there, waited to make sure that she is presence when he leave this world. She holds his hand, talk to him, whisper to him, asking him not to worry, his wife will be well taken care by the children that are now all grown up. 
After 2 days, D..........
is still there holding the hand, talking, whispering to her old man. 
Another daughter of his came and go home on that 1st night the doc announced he won't be long. 
the second day, she walked in the room, she throw a question to the old man asking "huh? you still around ah?!"

Do you find that funny?
I totally break into laughter after I heard that. 
I'm so tired today. lol. 
Feel like puking this morning. Not enough sleep. 


Tuesday, December 14, 2010

What if........................ Is it possible?

What if we catch up?

Singapore is a hi-tech, wealthy city-state with a highly-developed and successful free-market economy. It has an open and corruption-free environment, stable prices, and a per capita GDP higher than that of most developed countries. 

Its economy is heavily dependent on exports, like consumer electronics, information technology products and pharmaceuticals. It also has a growing financial services sector and a thriving port.

Like Malaysia, Singapore's leaders are conservative and the country has strict social controls and draconian laws pertaining to freedom of speech and expression.

Malaysia aspires to be like Singapore but its racial strife and 'bumiputera-first' policies are a deterrent to most investors.

What if Malaysia could be rid of corruption and be relatively free of racial and religious strife? What if the different races and political parties were united and had one common goal – to create a better Malaysia?

Would Malaysia be able to steal the thunder from Singapore then?

What if the man who could unite the people was Anwar Ibrahim? A man whose political life is now ensnared by a deliberate political trap.

Singapore cannot continue to be a magnet for foreign investment or a hub for industry, commerce and transport, if Malaysia comes out of its rut.

*Please note that I did not wrote the above paragraph. 

but I am going to comment on it. :P
Look, everyone of us is living on this realistic world.
We cannot always keep assuming, 
doing this over and over and over. 
What if.....................
This is something that we spend most of our time in,
thinking, imaging, what if..............
what if i was born rich...................
what if i was born prettier.................
what if i was less lazy in the past..............
what if i'm not born in here..............

Oh please...... there is no what if......
this is what it is. Face it, deal with it. 
You can't be always imagining that you'll success in life, 
and do nothing, just sit there and wait for it. 
Law of Attraction is a book that tell everyone of us, 
that we can attract a positive into our life, 
whenever we think of a negative, 
it is always easier to be attracted than positive. 

Law of Attraction did not highlight that you just sit there, 
and do nothing, just think. and it will come true. 
It never happen to me. Does it happen to you before?
Tell me if it does. 

You still need to write yourself a false cheque if that is what you want to attract, am i right?
is that the example the book give in secret?
that you need to go onto the website, 
print out the false cheque, 
fill in the numbers, look at it, play with it, imagine having it, 
spending it like you have already got it. Isn't it what the book delivered?

Can you see one string of action require before the attraction really begin? 
that is the same thing here. 
Does it mean anything to just
"What if Malaysia could be rid of corruption and be relatively free of racial and religious strife?" 
"What if the different races and political parties were united and had one common goal – to create a better Malaysia?"

Think, is it possible? Is it happening?
Is there anyone trying their effort to make it happen? 
Is the country, the people ready for this?

I feel like shouting out 'HERE the NONSENSE AGAIN" 

Another topic here that I wanted to comment,
couldn't remember where I heard it from, 
nor where I read it from. 

People start commenting on religion. 
This religion is no good, that religion is no good. 
Is it really a matter here? 
Religion is believes, religion is thoughts, religion is morals, religion is freedom and restriction. 
Why I say so? 

If you believe there are living beyond this land, 
that somehow can protect you, 
that is your believes.

Every single words in the Al-Quran, Bible, Hindu/Buddhism story books are to make you think. 
Thinking helps in forming your thoughts. 

It is morals. Every story is trying to make you learn the consequences behind 
this action, behind that action. 
It is a illustration examples for living on this land creates by man.
Creates by man?! There you go again, it is all about believing. 
Believing that this artwork and article that createed and written by this man 
is some massage that he/she received from the heavenly. 

Religion free your mind, in a way, 
and restricts you from doing something that you want to do. 
However, those restriction ain't all bad. 
Definitely reasonable for your discipline, and safety. 
(of course, to me, i think that is a restriction for me to experience life, 
and that is why i don't subscribe any religion, 
but don't take me wrong, I do respect and believe in all of them! 
I just choose not to practise them.) 
For example, no alcohol for certain religion, 
you won't be drinking until you lost your virginity without you knowing it, 
you won't be drinking until you hit someone on the road, 
or even get yourself killed, banging onto a tree out of nowhere. 
swinging swinging, fall asleep, 
puking puking, spending the next day cleaning up here and there when you are suppose to be at work. 
Can't work, your head feeling 360 degree, got up late etc etc. 

Sex before marriage? for me, why not?!
but it is to prevent you from, you know, 
getting pregnant, regretting. 

Religion is all about how you interpret it. 
Some people can interpret it in benefiting themselves,
some don't. 
Anyway, just trying to say that religion are good for one, good for all. 

and don't live in a WHAT IF world.... you get yourself stuck there....