Preparation, Prayer and CNY!

Happy Chinese New Year!
Gong Xi Fa Cai

The week before CNY
Spring cleaning,
bit by bit....
sweep the 'ceiling',
water jetting the balcony,
prayer cleaning....
Every year the same..

CNY
29th of 2008...
before eve...
it was my dad's birthday,
we go makan at one of the serdang restaurant.
cost for around 250++
got shark fins, got steam fish, got herbal chicken,
got soft skin grab, got veges, got "errrrap errrrap". lol
what else? ah! Lao Shang!
nice dinner.
that was the first lao shang that we took.

30th of 2008 CNY eve
Some cleaning, and prayer.
Makan together....
got fish, got chicken, got duck........ got prawn...... got SOUP!
and can't remember anything special. XD
which mean, nothing special.

First day
my family and i makan vege only for this day,
no cookies, no junk, no pork, no chicken, no fish, no gas drink, no soft drink... lol.
only veges, soya ok lo....
water also ok....
my mother's colleagues came to visit.
they have to makan what we makan.
all indian! LOL.
I wonder how my mother be so close and good friend with all Indian..
Indian's lover... XD
Before they finish their food...
one of my uncle came...
he is a christian...
and he did something terrible to his parent who passed away...
once he convert.. he actually throw all the prayer staff, including his parent...
he never pray for them since then....
not going graveyard.... etc...
but... not my business...
I believe there is god...
but my value are different.
i believe all. I don't care who u are, the real god, or guan yin, allah, elephant.
Just tell me, do i have a soul?
If i do have like all religion teaches....
then tell me, when i'm dead, Where is my soul? where is it going?
how it leave my boby? how i enter into a new body?
If none can answer, i'll remain my value...
I know u're there just to guide...
therefore i can choose to follow or not listen at all...
i believe that what i get is what i'd done.
I believe in KARMA. but only it happen in this life.
I believe i was born to repay something....
for some reason, i'm born here, and the people around me appear around me....
But since none of the religion can tell me and where my soul is heading to after death....
So, don't be too serious.... if u over did something.....
like talking bad about other religion to make yours superior....
did it with others... don't do on me.... useless... LOL
I prefer searching by my own... throught books....

of course, my uncle did not try to convict us also la...
i think he's scare of my dad....
cause my dad was once a christian, and almost convert into one. family problem...

At night, my gramma's god daughter and old neighbour came to visit.
they chat alot....
elder son is in Umobile...
daughter is in hotel...
3rd daughter is in secondary,
and the youngest, not sure.

2nd and 3rd day.........
next post la....
busy la~ =)

Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year
some words to end 2008
A year gone,
bad thing should be left behind,
start a new year,
hoping to be a better year.
Memory.....
good and bad.....
We keep them from 2006 to 2007,
2007 to 2008,
2008 to 2009.......

A new year,
before chinese new year,
i'd received a message which ask me to evaluate my achievement in 2008.
i did not really read that message and understand it.
I never set any target during 2008.
I never set target in the year of 2009 too.
I'm not confident to myself,
i don't believe that i'll work toward my goals,
therefore, i never set one.

That message was send by a close friend of mine.
She is once a naive person.
She take things seriously when she should,
and she is the joker in the gang.
However, she had changed.
In 2009, she told me of her target.....
I....
I'm speechless.
But i learnt one fact.....
Friendship forever.... Most of the time, people say this....
why people mentioned friendship forever but less people say you and me, friend forever?
friendship, yes, indeed, it'll stay forever,
u can find it anywhere and everywhere,
but faces on that ship might always change.
friends are hard to sustain forever.
Friends are like flower, they are fragile.
flower live for maybe a week, few days, even a day...
friends are almost the same....
when u say something wrong....
something as friend can't mention at all....
that friend's face will jump off from your ship,
to the ocean to look for the right ship....

I care for friend, always....
i believe i did....
at least during the past few years.....
but.... i feel miserable.....
responses i get......
...........
something that i get.....
i feel like jumping off from that ship.....
and swim back to my little island,
where both my folks are.....
where my brothers and sister are....
my family.....

Sometimes... i found things funny....
When i get upset and sad
about my family....
i'll be heal in a day or two....
but when it come to friends....
it'll just add up.....

Anyway, not important....
What i want to say is....
"A new year, the show must go on"
"if u are asked or teach to set a target and work hard to it,
for god sake! set one that can be achievable! Use brain and mind to think!
Which are more important for you. let say,
a student, is studying to score is more important,
or work work work and forget about study
just to get something that ended up burden u even more,
and make u wasted your fees for the study?!"