lastly, cycling and death

She's going to Kedah on this saturday.

one of my friend got an offer to a Kedah University,

She'll be departing this saturday,

today would be the last meeting up with her.

I wish her good luck and all the best over there.

Hoping that she would take good care of herself over there.

She must learn to leave alone without her friends all around her.

I believe that she will surely make it.

4 years law program.

Will miss her, i think i will.

but meanwhile, i've stuffs to do too.

Will have to concentrate on my studies.

Last semester starting this july.

Other than that, I'm 21 this year.

Its kinda miserable and pathetic,

because i have not done anything in my life.

None achievement.

such a failure.

I went cycling today.

I felt the wind.

I felt the speed.

I felt my tiredness. LOL

i'm super tired.

i almost die.

i cycle from my house to my secondary school, and cycle back.

I'll do it again, yes i love it.

Late night, before 12pm,

i saw my hamster, that playful one.

it is a she.

I though she was asleep.

she is weird. wet, and asleep.

after my brother came home,

i look for him to notify him that i'm downloading something,

so he must not switch off the modem.

He asked me to go have a look at the hamsters, he was looking at it.

I found out that she is very injured and wounded.

I saw her die.

She is dead.

I saw her suffering.

I feel sorry. I should have notice it earlier.

I really should have.

I feel bad, sick.

RIP, good bye. I'm sorry.

I really hope she can make it through.

I knew she can't. i was just hoping.

Now i'm worry for the other one that's originally fat.

She became very thin. I worry she'll got bully by the mother.

Tomorrow will have to grab that little one another cage.

I hope its not too late.

I love that fat a lot. of course, i do like the playful one too.

but.....

Is it a sin...? I believe it is.