getting on hand, moving on* hatred in my heart and my soul

I'm getting everything on my hand.
I'm moving on.

3 years ago, i just graduate from my secondary school,
damn confusing over my future,
what should i study,
where should i study.

Half year later,
all because i show no interest in what my dad wanted me to do,
i just acted the way that i just don't care about anything.
My dad made his decision,
i ended up in Cyberlynx International College.
During that time,
i really don't want to do business.
i wanted to do something about designing,
i know it needs creativity,
i'm lack of it....
i just wanted to try,
but i never got the chance.
i feel.... u know.... not feeling good...
but i continue in that college,
doing my diploma in Business Administration.

A year or A year and half later,
my mama started to ask me of my interest for degree...
this is something that i never thought of during that time.
i.... just don't know what i wanted to do....
i don't have an ambigious....

But came to the end of the 2nd year of my diploma,
i found something....
something evil in me....
i wanted to have a easy life in future.
i wanted to have a luxury life for my parent.
both of them are not getting back what they should have from my elder bro.
i wanted myself to be able to give them what they should get,
and they want,
and plus what i wanted to give them.
Around 6 months ago,
i start of having some hatred inside me.
I gets myself much n much more aggresive everytime my parent talk about my elder bro.
I will give my parent their's pride.
Their's pride of giving birth to me, my 2nd bro, and even my little sis.
My 2nd bro live under my elder bro's shadow for many years.
He finally manage to have his own life.
People see him as him, and not see him as my elder bro's little bro....
I don't face this problem of living under shadow,
and i also don't know what made me dislike of my elder bro.....
okay, i knew.... i knew what made me dislike of his...
Not good to talk here.
Due to this evil hatred spirit in me,
i decided to have a taste of being lecturer.
Of being a lecturer,
i need to have a master.
I'll pay any cost and everything for getting my master.

By this september,
i'll be confirm graduating from Cyberlynx.
but before that,
end of this june,
i'll be in Kasturi College for my degree.
Bachelor of Arts (Hons) in Business Studies
I didn't made my mind up on what to study for degree...
But my mind set on having MBA in 3 years time.

The degree is not an issue after i've my mind set.
It's just like another stepping stone to achive of my MBA.
I believe if my evil spirit grow,
I'll be motivated even more...

I've a very beautiful and impressive stepping stone into my degree,
and i'll need to have a impresive stepping stone for my MBA.
Having Impresive degree result,
being 1st class honour will also help
my parent to gain back their pride.
the pride and the fact that,
he is smart and hardworking, but he's not as good as what i've done.
of what i'm going to do.
i hope i'm not wrong to have that evil thinking,
i hope someone support me, and....
i really hope i get it....
i want him to pay me some respect in future.
Especially to my parent.
I really care about them,
i'm very mind of what u did to them.
I must make u feel shameful!

"I WANT YOU TO PAY FOR WHAT YOU"VE DONE ON THEM! FEEL THE SHAME!"

4d5/5d5* attended 2004-2005, Class Reunion 2008

Hello, i'm back again to update my blog... =)

as u read the title of this blog,

i'm here to talk about the class reunion 2008 of 5 daisy 5.

Seriously, i'm actually not that close with them,

i seldom went into class, i seldom talk to them,

i seldom have fun with them, they are my ex-classmate, for 2oo4 & 2oo5.

however, i appreciate them.

they really did alot for holding this trip to Port Dickson.

They are amazing.

Explaining the trip with some photos. (faster ^^)

There goes the partly group photos.

The very first girl, Pui Yen;

her boyfriend, our class addmaths genius,

Jian Yong (pardon me if i spelled wrongly);

follow by the pinky guy, Boon Kiam;

the wide smile guy, Desmond;

the no much sound guy, Keng Sheng;

the "twins sister", Pauline follow by Wenjie;

last but not least, our handsome monitor, Lik Jin.

Dinner time!

Those are BBQ food that we did it downstair, at the garden.

It ended up in our apartment because outside is raining. (unlucky)

We Q those food in god speed.

Really fast, everyone did their part.

those food, partly are uncook, yet fresh. =P

i've little photos, most are during the dinner time,

i feel so pai sei, all the time, there is only me, attacking the food. ><"

Again, i'm eating.

can u see....?

i have a different hair style...

althought it's still short, but if u compare the above photo n this,

the length of the side hair are different.

porposely did it, one short,

the other long. nice? ^^ can't see uh...?

They are having fun at the beach....

1...2....3.... Snap/jump!

few snap, n finally, we got nice one.

they seem happy, they do, right?

i just don't feel like wetting myself that day.

it's fun to watch them play.

They play at the beach for quite some time...

an hour half or two....

they took alot of cute, funny and gorgeous photos...

this is the better photo that shows their

happiness during that time...

Everyone really jump in the same time.... COOL!

This is the photo where we took it from down to up....

it's actually a failure,

however, i posted it here because i wanted to show u the weather...

The weather is quite good when they decided to went to the beach..

They said they wanted to play banana boat...

but ended up, they didn't make it...........

the fee for the banana boat is rm10 per head. *expensive!

time to do some introduction.

from my left to right,

the beauty n sentimental, Wai Sin;

one from my only gang in class,

Yen Li, the............

can't think of a word........ ^^ good friend she is....

The fake twins...... ",

from my left to right,

Pauline, the elder one,

and Wenjie,

the younger one.

They both wear the same shirt and same "sandler"

when they depart to Port Dickson.

Okay, same, from my left to my right,

that is me, in pink collar shirt....

and the one in red is Yen Li.

We are in the same room....

We didn't allocate the room square....

We just choose and make it our room...

If u don't know.....

This is our handsome Monitor!

I'm not sure whether he is the one who plan this trip,

Anyway, there are few person that i really wanted to thanks,

*salute* To the Monitor, Lik Jin & the "mother of the trip" Pui Yen,

Thank you! Thanks to Pui Yen for making it such a comfortable trip...

I don't need to worry about food, drinks...

I don't need to worry about washing, cleaning,

she DID ALL!! Thanks alot!

This is me,

that is my DSLR Nikon D4ox??? yeah....

long nails i have.... kekez....

do i look pro?

I'm a profesional "LOMO" photograhper...

Kidding, LOMO is actually a type of camera which u can snap a series of action crystal clear... a few shot and snap within 30 seconds,

you can even snap it anywhere and anytime, in water, or something useless.

well, continue, from my left to right,

Lychee, Lik Jin, and ManYing.

I found something interesting during this trip,

these guys, they have a complicated relationship amount all of them.

They are really open minded people.

Glad to know that. =D

Again, from left to right too,

Wai Sin, Yen Li, Me, and Kim Foong.

Please don't not ask what am i wearing... =)

It is a Pink outfit....

Something like vest.... which will keep me abit warm...

It did a bad job!

A real bad job...

I still feel freezy after having that,

should have bring a coat.... or sweater....

The guy in Engineering.

Long not seen....

Boon Kiam,

he tell about his 2 years passtime story during the trip....

I get it all.... understand and agree to his worries...

I don't of him when i was secondary...

did not even talk to him up to 5 conversation...

but... yeah.... a friend who worth meeting every year... =P

Keng Seng,

this one is really one that i never spoke to...

I really never spoke to him before...

not even in this trip....

haiz...........

swt.............

Lychee,

Lai Chee Yen....

She has a Thai's name...

i think i knew her since.....

form 1??

maybe.... she is a cute one..... ^^

That is all for the trip....

As for more picture...

if u are interested,

u better visit their friendster....

i don't really have those photos...

their friendster full of it....

Have the access to my friendster,

and u'll found few of them.... =)

ah..... This trip is on the 7th and 8th of June...

One suprise...

they drink at least 5 bottles of beer (large)

the day before we came back....

and they sleep less than 3 hours....

they drove, and they speed up to 140km/j.......

they still have the energy to have spicy soup as their lunch at south city...

just now i went into a classmate's blogspot...

and i found out that, we are both using the same Layout.....

but, no worries...

i won't be using the same one for long... =) Bye...

the following blog will be the training camp of 70th scout troop, smk Seri Kembangan

at Isi Rimba Camp!